Thursday, September 9, 2010

Enough's enough! Or is it?

That age old question is nagging at me again... WHEN is enough, enough?

And what exactly does that mean anyway? Is it a matter of having enough of one thing, that you have no use for any more? Or is it truly the epitome of being fed up with a person or situation to the point where you just can't take it any longer? That THAT is absolutely IT? Enough's enough!.......??

This afternoon I was blindsided and wasn't sure where to turn. The person I should be able to turn to is actually the person that did the blindsiding. Sad. That exact details of the situation (the who, what and how) aren't truly that important. What's important is that there was a betrayal of privacy, of trust and self-confidence. A space that should be sacred, a place that should be for "my eyes only" was invaded in a rather secretive, penetrating way that made one feel as though there was no safe place to turn.

And it made me start to doubt. It made me start to doubt this persons motives, their trust and faith in me and in turn mine in them. THIS, is never a good thing. Nothing good can ever come of doubts such as those. And the term "Enough's enough" ran across my mind.

But what do I do, is the largest question of all? It's not as simple as "stop talking to them' or "cut them out". Trust me, at that moment I wish it was. I've cut people out of my life before and while it's not an easy task, it is something that I am completely capable of doing - as long as I 100% WANT to do it. And I think that's part of the issue here. I don't want to. And yet, I know that things can not go on as they have been. I love this person, they have played a significant role in my life for many years and parting with them would not be the cleanest of breaks (nor 100% either).

As my friend Sami says, it's time for a "Pro/Con List!" It's just...which to put on the Pro side and which to put on the Con?

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