What's worse than facing a personal crisis? How about facing it all alone?

That's exactly where I was yesterday. And it wasn't that I was truly alone. All it really took was a phone call, or a walk next door and I wouldn't be alone. Not physically or "physically" anyway. Yet, I was utterly, horribly, terribly alone.

The really crappy part about it? Probably having those people that you think you should never have to hesitate to call (thank you Sami) and they are completely unavailable - either because they are dealing with their own personal shit, are wrapped up in something they couldn't get out of, are the type that wouldn't exactly understand the situation or just didn't give a damn enough. Nothing makes a person feel even more shitty and alone than the last.

In the next few weeks, big changes are coming in some form or another for me. Quite unfortunately, I've had to cut off/out/drop friends and a few acquaintances. It broke my heart to do so; I am completely devastated. But I have to do what is best for ME. Certain influences have just not been good, certain people just don't care enough and others....well... they were just dead weight. The latter two really killed me because in realizing who those people were, I have lost some really amazing people that I enjoyed having in my life. But it's time to close this chapter and open the next. Even if this next chapter is shorter than the previous and the one to follow.